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Your Mess is Your Message

Family of 5!

Your mess is your message.

I heard this on a podcast and quickly wrote it in the notes on my phone. I’ve often felt like I’m unqualified to lead this tribe of inspired folks because I don’t have enough of life figured out.

My coach told me a story of a girl traveling with her mentor to lead a seminar. On the plane, the mentor is reading the book that they’re headed to speak on. She asked him how many times he’d read the book and he said this was his first time. Shocked, she asked how they’d be able to present on it if he hadn’t even read the full book yet. He said, “You only have to be one chapter ahead.”

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Anxiety from a Year of Change

I sat there with my second cup of coffee on a quiet Sunday morning while nearly every muscle in my body ached. We’d spent more than 12 hours painting and pulling up old carpet the day before, and I was feeling the results. I stared out my big window, knowing that the days here in this lovely little house were coming to an end. 

I took another sip of hot coffee, as if its warmth would provide some clarity around the thoughts swirling in my mind. 

The kids were sending those little animoto videos from their dad’s phone as they were all still laying in bed at his house. I’d received a chicken bawking, and jokes about underwear from a unicorn. I realized that those videos were more like what my Sunday mornings would look like in the future. At least half of them. 

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WHEN YOU WEAR A LOT OF HATS

I could feel the burn of hot tears lingering in my eyes, waiting to spill out onto my cheeks. Waiting to flow as soon as the gates were opened and they were free from where they’ve been trapped for months, waiting for the time to fall.

My husband had just gone to the ER again, this time while I was in another state. It was the third time in 45 days. I’d just worked nonstop for several days, doing a job that I didn’t even know I’d taken.

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Married on a Monday

Wedding at Magnolia Ridge
Wedding at Magnolia Ridge
Wedding at Magnolia Ridge

March 23, 2020 — I got married. On a Monday. In the middle of a worldwide pandemic. Without actually being engaged first. 

On a Monday afternoon, Zach and I got married by our pond with just the kids, a photographer, and an officiant. Only a handful of people actually knew it was happening beforehand. 

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